Diary

A moody weekend

Our view over Perranporth

There’s something beautiful about autumn weather and the seaside, especially when it goes all moody. It’s so cosy to sit inside whilst the wind is howling on the outside, plus I couldn’t be more content having the perfect window to gaze out of.

Sometimes you forget how nice to not have a running to-do list. Sometimes its nice not to worry about having to get for anything in particular. Reminding you it’s just as important to enjoy the small moments as much as the big.  

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King of the North(ern Quarter)

I grew up in North Wales where there wasn’t a ton of options for clothes shopping so we often made shopping trips to Manchester’s Trafford Centre. Those memories are still fairly vivid, but I don’t remember ever exploring Manchester itself. We definitely missed out, as I think I’ve found a new city to fall in love with.

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Films for a rainy day

It’s raining outside and you’re not in a mood to do much, so you switch on your laptop and browse Netflix for a feel good film. There’s not many things that are better when you’re feeling unmotivated. These are the films I return to again and again to make me feel more human (and hopefully motivated).

Legally Blond

I wanted to be Elle Woods when I was fourteen. Her perfect blonde hair and upbeat personality was something I envied as a shy awkward teenager. I must have watched her navigate the halls of Havard Law over 100 times. As an adult might no longer want to be her, but I still take inspiration from her journey. There’s something to be said about staying true to yourself and going for your goals despite everyone telling you that you can’t. There’s going to be another Legally Blonde next year and I really hope they do Elle Woods justice (pun intended).

Chef

A cinematic foodie roadtrip? Yes please. This film just makes me feel good every time I watch it and makes me want to quit my day job and buy a van. To be honest I wanted to do that before seeing Chef, but it at least makes me feel hopeful in the possibility.

Whiplash

This film is the epitome pursuing greatness through hard work and determination. Whilst I don’t think I could ever push myself to the point Miles Teller’s character does, you can see feel his unwavering and slightly unhinged desire to succeed.  

Funny Face

I must know all the words to the songs in this musical. I also can’t help but want to dance whenever its comes the part in the film where they sing Clap Yo’ Hands. Also, seeing Audrey Hepburn dance gives me life. I totally feel like Thom Yorke got some of his dance moves from her.

Wild

Surprise! It’s another Reese Witherspoon film, albeit an entirely different character. I first watched this film on a flight back from Tokyo. Having spent 2 glorious weeks exploring Japan, I was feeling a little low about returning. Despite my rising nausea that would lead to me curling up in the Paris airport for the entire of our five hour layover, I still really got into this film. It’s not exactly an upbeat film, but it’s definitely an inspiring. It follows a courageous woman as she solo hikes 1000 miles on the Pacific Crest trail.

Kiki’s Delivery Service

This film makes me wish I was a witch who can fly to live in a cute seaside town. Like all Studio Ghibli films, the world of Kiki’s Delivery Service is so  immersive. It’s hard not to feel a happy watching this, but most of all it makes me want to draw.

Hopefully after watching these the rainclouds will be gone and you’ll feel that motivation to get up and do something!

How to beat imposter syndrome

Do you sometimes feel like you’re not good enough? Like someone’s going to realise you’re not a master at drawing or your unable to come up with amazing ideas all the time? You’re not alone, imposter syndrome ((link to definition)) has reported to have affected at least 70% of people at one point in their life. Even the most accomplished on artists experience imposter syndrome sometimes. ((link comic))

It’s is unavoidable if you put yourself out there. I used to think I was good at dealing with the fear of judgement, whether it was personal or professional I would be able bounce back after a low period. But lately, I don’t feel so resilient. I’ve become overly precious over my creative work. I find it uncomfortable sharing my work with others, like a wriggling worm inside my stomach. It’s become easier the more I share it online but there are still times I will go through the motions.

But all is not lost! There are definitely ways to beat imposter syndrome and start feeling a little more self-assured.

Some ways I cope when I feel like a fraud

  1. Reflect on why you’re feeling this way (was it something someone said, have you been scrolling Instagram for hours or did you not get the job you thought you were a shoe in for?)
  2. Start to break down why. Sometimes its not you, it can be the mood of an art director at the time to reject you. The job you really wanted, well maybe there was a candidate with work more relevant to the brief.
  3. Sit with your feelings for a little while and consider if feeling this way is helpful
  4. Don’t compare yourself to others.
  5. Talk with friends, loved ones or mentors about how you feel. It can really help put a better perspective on your doubts.

Imposter syndrome isn’t always such a terrible thing. Sometimes you might have come on because something needs to be improved. Maybe your style of work is getting stale or your influences show up too obviously in your work. Consider it as a sign that you need to make a change.

Doubt it perfectly normal and its OK to feel it from time to time. Of course if this is something that you feel on the regular, it might be time to consider something like conselling to better understand why your feeling this way.

British Columbia, I’m yours

Downtown Vancouver in the distance

I lived in Vancouver for almost a year back in 2014, so it was very much like returning to an old friend when I visited with my family last summer. I never fully appreciated all Vancouver had to offer whilst I was living there, till I was back there as a tourist. A beautiful gem of city nestled on the coast with easy access to both white sandy beaches and downhill skiing all within an easy journey. Part of me felt the loss from ever having left. It’s easier to look at things through rose tinted glasses once their gone, but it’s also a lesson in appreciating what’s right there in front of you.

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Brighton in the summer

The Royal Pavilion

I’m suffering pretty badly with feelings of wanderlust lately, so much that I’ve been spending a lot of time trawling through photos from last years travels. Last summer we were lucky enough to go for a long weekend to Brighton, a place I’ve always been curious to visit.

We wandered aimlessly through the lanes and admiring the picturesque views of the Royal Pavilion and iconic Brighton beach front whilst eating our body weight in food. Eating things like smashed pea on toast from Larder and perfectly soft boa buns from Terre a Terre (I dream of those boa buns, they were probably one of the best things I’ve eaten). I feel like its justified that most of my travelling centres around eating.

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